Reaching

This will be a no frills blog because photos are for Facebook and Instagram.  This blog is for my thoughts.  It is also for me.  My opinions matter here because, let's face it, they don't matter in the world.  My thoughts don't matter in the world.  Honestly, I really don't matter to the world.  BUT I matter to me and I matter to my creator and quite frankly, I don't care what the world thinks right now.  In fact, I'm at odds with the world at the moment.

Why is it that you can go weeks or even months with everything good or even ok and then all of a sudden it seems it all crumbles underneath you?  I understand hardship is actually a good thing.  It molds us, educates us, and makes us stronger.  However, it flat out sucks.  It is the worst when a choice you've made comes back to bite you in the ass.  That makes you realize what an idiot you really are.  You can go along becoming all proud of yourself and the successes you've had and then life decides to humble you.

That's where I am today.  Maybe tomorrow will be vastly different.  Maybe I'll even see why today was so bad.  And then again, maybe not.  Whatever the case, this blog is to document the struggle.  I strive to find the good in everything.  Every. Thing.  Because at my core, I believe there is always at least a smidge of good - even in the worst things life brings.

Think that's a reach?  I know better.  And even it is, it worth reaching for.

I'm a fighter and I'll fight to the end to see good come of something.

Right now, today, life is hard.  If I'm honest I would be totally ok with death if it chose me.  But until it does, I choose to fight the hardships we face and I hope that it at some point is not just for me but for those who know me.  I hope that I am some kind of light in this world.  Tonight I'm pouting but tomorrow, I'll shine in some form or capacity.

So, goodnight moon!  I'll take over in the morning ;)